I Surrender!

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I am tired. Tired of overthinking and ruminating. Tired of regretting my past and planning my future. Tired of searching for meaning and purpose in everything I do and think. Tired of worry and anxiety. Tired of wanting to get it right everytime. Tired of looking for explanation in my and others' actions and behavior. Tired of explaining myself to myself. Tired of analyzing my emotions and processing my thoughts.
I surrender.
I am not giving up but merely surrendering to life. I surrender to karma, to motions of the universe and to the superior source of energy. I surrender because I realized I am not in control. I accept how insignificant we are in the grand scheme of life. I surrender in order to stop resisting. I surrender in order to open up my heart and my mind to receive.
I am willing to receive what universe is offering me. I am open to receive love and life outside my sphere of comprehension. I am allowing fortune to happen to me, paths to open up spontaneously without my planning and preparation. I am ok with not knowing all the time. I don't need to have it all figured out and I am fine with that. I am open to receive. My heart is open to accept what comes my way, good or bad. My mind is open to messages the universe will send me.
I am tired so I surrender and that opens up my heart and mind.

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